I lived in California for a short time when I was younger(5 years) . So I often think back to when I lived there and life was simple.
So this is what I do when I cant take the overwhelming stress of too much multi tasking.
I often think. This wasnt suppose to be my life. How did I get here? Was I really suppose to be a mom? Was I suppose to be a soccer mom? Was this really suppose to be the job I would end up with? or was I suppose to be someone else? IDK.
Maybe its because my kids are older now or just maybe its because I have been a mom since the age of 21. I have spent most of my life being a parent. Im certainly not resentful that I have been a parent this whole time. I love my kids and they are amazing.
But I wonder sometimes now that they are closer to having their "own" lives, about all the
"What If's. Soon I will have alot of free time on my hands. I'm not sure what I will do with all that "free" time. So it makes me stop and think about life. Where I am now, where I have been, and where am I going. Where do I wanna be?
I am sure these are normal questions for someone my age, right? Sometimes I think I wouldnt change anything. and other times I think that I made alot of wrong choices. I know everyone always says (I even tell my own children) that you learn from your mistakes.
But my life now is the opposite of what I think my life would have been, had I chose some different paths. I'm not a unhappy person. I actually have a great life and a wonderful family. But that never stops me from wondering "What If".
Gods Plan, I suppose.
But don't you ever wonder "what if"?????????
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